sorbetes

am i allowed to want

 to feel

  to long for

these fleeting cute moments

that make my heart spasm

knowing full well i can't

 fulfill

  truly for

the time with you i spent

can't bridge this large chasm

between us; to know you

 better

  is my wish

that i pray for each night

but my guilt weighs steadfast

though these feelings are true

 "hold her"

  my selfish

self i can't bring to light

can't bear losing your trust

i've chosen to walk here

 lightyears

  away from

being able to give

to laugh, to see, to touch

screaming thirst, i can't hear

 these fears

  burdensome

so with that i must live

without asking for much