first of may

basking in beauty, blessed under blossoms
breeze full-embracing, blissful her bosom
lull into languor, lean by my lonesome
longing, i'm lying listless and loathsome

whistling while watching, wistfully winded
whispers awash in wisdom and wine-breath
clouds overcasting, cloaking their choir head
cloudburst come crashing; clawing in kind dread

drowning in deluge, drunk in disdain, i'm
screaming in silence, slumb'ring and saline

mira

i wish i knew more people with your name
because each time that yours falls in my frame
my scars flare up and stings like winter rain
its peaceful meaning held lost in my fane

so if i knew more people with your name
this solitary link will split in twain
these memories replaced; none will remain
and someday i will grow to numb this pain

and so i'll know more people with your name
to bring this peace into my heart again

wala na

 

wala na
mukha mo ngayo'y di nakikita
maski ang 'yong buhok na kumakaway
mistulang anino sa buwan
na 'di ko na nais maaninag

wala na
tinig mo ngayo'y di naaalala
himig ng iyong paghinga'y
katahimikang maingay
ang saki'y di na pilit sinasabay

wala na
yakap mo ngayo'y di nadarama
ang iyong halik na dati'y nagbabaga
ngayon ay abong tinatangay
ng ulang tapos nang maghinagpis

ang dating halimuyak na dumadampi
ngayon ay wala na -
  wala na sa paggising
ang dating matamis na naging mapait
ngayon ay wala na -
  wala na sa aking labi
'di na maibabalik dahil wala na sa panaginip
tuyo na ang waig; bakas mo'y nadaig
tuluyan nang nakasara
ang bukas nating dalawa

paalam

2pc

Cold; I've been walking underwater

Should've drowned though I am

hazed; With heavy hands, heaving heart

The sand sinking between my toes

I haven't been looking forward at all

Stuck watching scenes play out behind

The sun blinds me ahead

I could only face towards the shade

You've been engraved on me

but I don't wish to dwell any longer

It would be simpler if I forget

but I don't mind the complex

They say time heals all things

I say it's about time

I rise to warmer waters

Hold my head up high and breathe

We'd been apart for so long

I won't ask you to stay anymore

The sun is brighter up front

Thanks, and so long

 

An 11-year old draft I revised just recently

Was I ever loved by the rain?
She traps trapped me in countless bus stops surrounded by concrete
yet she paints painted my rice fields with a tint of gold
But was I ever her muse as well, or am was I just a happy coincidence?

She comes and goes came and went as she pleases pleased
and I can could never stop her from leaving
as much as I would've wanted to
for I know it's knew it was in her nature to roam the skies and embrace the sun
and bring rainbows to the lands she reaches

Yet I still love her
I still long for her whenever she's gone
and I still wish for her cold embrace - the countless raindrops falling
to keep me still for the night

But now the clouds have cleared

with the rain long gone

The sun brightly blinding

a warm embrace throughout the day

Was I ever loved by the rain?
I chuckled at the thought -
What a stupid thing to ask.

sorbetes

am i allowed to want

 to feel

  to long for

these fleeting cute moments

that make my heart spasm

knowing full well i can't

 fulfill

  truly for

the time with you i spent

can't bridge this large chasm

between us; to know you

 better

  is my wish

that i pray for each night

but my guilt weighs steadfast

though these feelings are true

 "hold her"

  my selfish

self i can't bring to light

can't bear losing your trust

i've chosen to walk here

 lightyears

  away from

being able to give

to laugh, to see, to touch

screaming thirst, i can't hear

 these fears

  burdensome

so with that i must live

without asking for much